What To Say.....

So my friend Lexa said I should write everyday in Emily's blog and I was thinking, "How would I describe the last 8 months?" and "What would I write everyday?"  Well, here it goes.  I would describe the last 8 months as eternally waiting in purgatory with someone constantly teasing you with the possibility of escape but dashing your hopes over and over.  Wow. That's depressing.  It has been horrible.  Logan asks me everyday for his father.  It breaks my heart when he is crying and says, "I want my Daddy!"  Or when he does something awesome and instead of joy my heart aches because Pedro is not here to see it.  We miss Pedro terribly.  He has missed his son turn from a toddler into a boy.  It rips Pedro's heart out.  Most of the time it just feels like a nightmare and that I might wake up any second.  I don't know how I have made it through really.  I think about all the craziness that has happened in the last 8 months on top of Pedro being detained: the water pipes breaking in our house and the house being under construction for 2 months, the car breaking down, a flat tire, our giant dog escaping, Logan having emotional tantrums, and other crises.  So how did I get through?  I have had lots of support from friends and family and I started going to church.  I know.  All my atheist and agnostic friends out there are groaning but it has been life changing for me.  The community, support, and faith has helped me tremendously.  There are some positive sides to this disaster.  I found community and faith, Pedro and I appreciate each other so much more, I truly know I have wonderful friends and family, and I believe Pedro's story has changed some people's minds about immigration reform.  Don't get me wrong, life is hard as a single mom but it would be harder if I was completely alone.  So, thank you to everyone that has supported, helped, prayed and thought about us!  Everything all of you have done, has mattered!